Question Everything

.... Have you ever thought that you might be turning into someone you used to think you would never be?

Not a single time? Not even once? Really?!

I have. More than normal lately..

Something To Die For

Would you die for something? How about someone?

Me? Well... ahmm.... maybe?! Yep, maybe. Why am I not sure? Easy!
This is a subject people often talk but the truth is we can't always be sure of what we are saying about it. Yeah, it's 'cute' to have an idea, an ideal of how good person we could be but if you aren't facing the situation on real time you can't have 100% sure of your reactions and actions. Who says your mind don't play a trick on you and just freeze? That's why I don't think that exists an absolute answer to this kind of question.

But yes, I do have my idea, my "ideal" of how I want things to happen. So if you ask "Would you die for your parents and/or siblings?", my answer will be yes. If it's true? I say yes too.

Nothing Compares

Each feeling is different, each emotion is experienced in a different way and, most important, no matter what we see this days, each person is always, always (!), unique.

We can't compare situations of life, we can't compare results, success, failure, ways of dealing with situations. It's impossible.
The best we can do is trying, just trying to understand. It will never be 100% successful because when happening directly to us we don't know how we would react in that exact moment, in the heat of the moment, but it's the best we can do. Trying to have a little bit of comprehension because... yes, nothing ever compares to what we feel ourselves and no one ever feels the same, with the same intensity.


The Way The World Works

At some point everything comes back to the beginning. It's a cycle. Pure and simple.

I believe in karma, sometimes more than others but still, I believe in it. And, if we think about it, what we consider karma it's in reality a cycle.

One of the quotes I have on computer desktop is "Karma's a bitch" and I must say.. I love that quote. I some cases I think it takes too long but karma always has its way towards people and their actions. We may see some people who are successful and "happy" because they diminish others and use them to get higher in life but I promise you that someday they'll suffer the consequences. You may not notice it or even know but they will, maybe later than sooner but it will happen.
But the way I see it karma doesn't work just for one side. It also happens to what we may consider "good" people. To those who always care for the others and help them without being selfish and second intentions... How could karma not work for them? We always need a balance in life.

Karma. It's the way world works in my opinion. What we experience is often the result of what we did before. If something really bad happens and we are not sure what we did to cause that.. maybe... maybe it's because something great is coming along and expecting you.

It's just a way of facing life. Just a theory. My theory at least.

A Little Respect

I'm not sure if I hate hate someone because, yeah, let's face it, it's a pretty strong word so... I'll just say that I really (REALLY) strongly dislike some people. More words than the necessary but it probably sounds better to most people.

Moving on... I may not like someone but that doesn't mean I need to be rude to them. It doesn't. Yep, sometimes I am but it's only because they ask for it but others I'm the most polite person I can be towards them, no matter our past and stuff like that. They are people (even if they are despicable and arrogant and just... urrgggg!!) and I still have a little respect because of that. Nope, the respect isn't directly towards them but to the fact they are human beings. That being said all I ask from them it's the same "little respect" I give to them.

Yes, I accept it. I'm conscious that I have a small (or even significant) group of people who don't like me but that doesn't mean they are rude to me and that I'm rude to them. Some ignore me and that's ok for me. Also, feel free to talk about me in my back, feel free to say whatever you wanna say but when talking to me on a daiy basis, as long as you treat me with a minimum of respect I won't care about that. Well.. at least not much as I used to.
I'm not your servant and you aren't mine either, I'm no less than you and you aren't even near of being my superior so.. slow down and think right and show respect every now and then.

So, remember... do it like me..
Even when you want to call someone lots of names or do anything else try to remain a little bit calm. Curse them in your head but show them a little respect. But only because they are human beings.
On the other hand... if the person is really really arrogant and urggg!! just forget everything I said before and curse them loud and properly with every single word you can remember because every now and then all they deserve is someone who has the courage to confront them and not back up. And if someone says anything.. say that you are doing that in respect for yourself.


You Won't Feel A Thing

When you are already used to anything from everyone you can't help but don't feel anything for a certain time. It isn't bad... it isn't good... it's nothing!
If you reach that state of mind, if you start not caring about a single thing, if you start feeling nothing related to what you do or people do to you then there's something wrong with you.

You are either already fucked up so badly that will take a miracle to put all your pieces together or you are just a few steps closer to have a giant mental breakdown where you will do nothing but cry.
Sometimes you'll know the reasons for why you are cryings, others you'll be crying just becayse.. others... others you'll just have no idea what's going on with the world or worst, with you...

But.. the thing is.. After awhile, even when you appear to be ok, or when you think you're ok, there's always a couple of things that will no longer have effect on you because after awhile yes, you just won't feel a thing due all you've been through before. After awhile you'll be a different person and after awhile you can't help but being indiferent towards some stuff...